"An American crime" - its the perhaps the one movie that has moved me thus, it is the only i could not finish. The movie had been at my desk for several weeks before i sat down to watch it today - feburary 27, 2009. And at 3:00am and i am neither able to sleep nor able to finish the movie. Halfway through the first part i wanted to know if it was based on a real incident. After having googled the name and reading some on the topic, i was disgusted to find that it was true, that there was a Gertrude Baniszewski, guilty of inflicting torture on a young girl thus. I didn't want it to be true, no person should have to bear the torture that Sylvia Likens had to.
in general i do not empathize with people in suffering, rather i seem unable to do that, but knowledge of this incident shook me, so much so that i don't want to finish the movie because i am scared of what i might see. how is it that a girl was abused thus and all those around failed to take notice, much less act..??
And despite all this "Gertie" was released on parole for being a model prisoner, i am no judge but how can a person guilty of such monstrosity be let loose like that. How could she want to come out or prison after having admitted her crimes..?? Maybe, the parole board was convinced that she was penitent, but no amount of repentence is enough for such a heinous crime. What right did she have to rob somebody of her dignity and life. I feel dissatisfied and angry because justice has not been done.
may the soul of Sylvia likens rest in peace.
the cemetery where Likens lies
http://www.trutv.com/library/crime/notorious_murders/young/likens/7.html

I judge those around me according to a strict moral code and I can not help but feel disgusted when people around me indulge in such activities that violate it. There are those who may find this a little idiosyncratic but thats the way it is, i believe that a man who lacks ethics merely exists and does not satisfy the purpose of "living" as intended by our holy father. What good a man would be if he were to abase himself thus; inspired by such notions i often find myself uninterested in social affairs than the degree required. And in such moods i realize i am surrounded by people whose conscious does not go beyond the physical needs of the daily struggle to exist. is that not mediocrity, submitting yourself to the confines of a mortal life when you have been endowed with the knowledge of the beyond. is it not mediocrity when you succumb to the charm of materialism and abandon what is right. and i would be anything but mediocre.Thus i do not care how people dress, what they say or what they think, what matters is being happy within. physical gratification may bring happiness but it is ephemeral. People say happiness is like the butterfly that is difficult to capture if you run after it, stop chasing it and its yours. But i disagree with them, happiness is not something to be attained passively rather it is something to be earned.
with these thoughts guiding my actions i live on each day of life. it does not mean i am anti social or recusant, i too fulfill various roles required of me, but in the light of the afore mentioned beliefs. This, i believe brings me a step closer to my salvation.

   

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

yes i have donated blood. twice now, my first time was las year at my University. man i was scared like hell, but it wasn't painful an i left with good feeling about the whole thing. since i weight around 190 they took two units of blood. i think its a noble thing to do and people should be more forthcoming. there are some who are misinformed about the whole thing, i hope someone enlightens them.

   

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

i play the guitar. am not very good at but i like to believe that i play reasonably well, i play rythm and particularly like finger-picking. earlier i used to play violin, but quit when that in high school